I am being pulled part in in every which way direction and all I want to do is keep myself together. LIfe has introduced me to many people some who I have been happy to welcome into my life and often I question if I should have. I have had my soul shredded into pieces by who I thought was a loved one. I cannot say that my time with this person was not all spent in suffering. We had our good times but I know I did not deserve what happened. I wish things would of ended differently because in the end I also lost my friend. The one who I trusted with everything even my darkest secrets. Now I have no one I can speak. to or even feel comfortable speaking to about some of my issues at hand.