Dreams

I've had so many interesting/weird dreams lately. They have been very detailed and Vivid. People in them include family members friends and lost connections . Not sure if any of my dreams mean anything or if they are just dreams.

Maybe I should start logging them to see if I find a patern or can make sense of them ...

MS. D

My vision was right, the year of the suffering.

Today I realized

it's the year of suffering. 

Ms.D

About Time

Time to be brutally honest with everything.

I'm done.

Ms. D

Distance makes the heart grow fonder....

Well I moved up to nor-cal and it has been hard, between work and school I have no time and no energy. So this last year was hectic on me and I hardly talked and much less see my family. So while we bicker like a normal family when we are together for too long I missed them a lot. So I've been trying to spend as much time as I can with them. I feel like so much has happened and changed that she last year that I am out to find the loop with them.I feel like i do not have a place, not with my family or even in my own apartment. I am utterly lost and alone. Anyways, in my attempt to get to know my family better I have goen on a couple family outings. I even when to a soccer game.


It was really fun and I was happy to be with them, This year was rough with it being my first teaching year, but spending this time with them melted all that away.

from
8/7/12

move

I want to move even farther away, somewhere different where no one know my name. I want to start new away from all my thoughts. I want to sail away and drown my thoughtserase the memories, erase the past. I want a new beginning, where I love and need no one. Along in my little care, painting pictures on my walls. I want to go far, far away. Where the wind can't even find me.

So I used to be a warrior
But I've since then retired.

I was injured in a battle
but have not recovered

I want to recover
I used to be a warrior...

Remember when

we got in trouble with my parents. . .
we went out dancing, and it was my first time
I really liked it and later I found out that so did you

we went to all the levels and rooms
we lost ourselves dancing all night long

at first I hesitated and you coaxed me to dance,
after then we just couldn't stop;
we both had drinks, but at the end we lost track of time...

I opened my eyes and it's like we traveled through time
the floor was nearly empty and we we were amongst the few
Missed calls, texts and voice mails.

we hopped in my car and headed to my parents house
you kept asking me if I had fun
I think its because you wanted to make sure I did

and well I did...
we got home and we each went to our rooms
my dad was up and talked to me

in the morning you woke up before me;
you talked to my mom and she was mad,
later she told me what you guys talked about

I woke up and saw you i the dinning table talking with her
you asks if I had fun...
I did

I asked if we were in trouble
she asked you why we were home so late
you told her all we did was dance

also that if she knew I dance
because I dance beautifully in your eyes
and you were like "wow"

she told me you said that last part.
you kissed me that night when we got home.
I loved dancing with you.