Looking for a distraction.

I haven't posted in a while, I'm still trying to get the hang of it but really that isn't an excuse. I'm going to try harder to write instead if keeping everything in. So I've been doing quite a bit since summer started so I'm going to post up some stuff that I've done. Maybe this will keep my mind and heart at bay.....

yearning, but for what?

My soul yearns, and i know for what. But the why , is what I cannot answer. I knew I hadn't come to peace with it, but why again.

They say loved sould stay connected with one another, but does that mean the other is calling for me?
I doubt it.
 
Perhaps it's just a loose wire.

ranting of the mind

I’m probably a fool for still thinking about them. But it’s hard to try and get over people when you didn’t have closure or even just say good-bye. 

Timing is an important aspect in a relationship and it always seems to fail me. Timing was on neither of our sides and the lack of it together pulled us apart, not to mention all the other things tumbling down around us. I tried to help but you weren’t used to having people help you and you always pushed me away, and it hurt. 

Our last moments together were always spent reassuring you that I did love you and that you weren’t worthless. I wanted to tell you that you were being insecure for no reason.  We may have been in different stages on our life but it should have been thing to talk about not tare us apart. Did it bother you that I had a career and could support myself and you couldn’t? I never would ask you in person because I was scared of hurting you, because I knew you wanted to be “a man” and be able to support me.

I knew what you had and didn’t have going into the relationship. You were a good person with a good heart, and I didn’t know how to show you that I valued that the most from you. You were a friend I could talk to, the one who always went the extra mile for me. ..

of late...

From right to left, Basil, morning burst oregano, basil, and tomatoes

I'm trying to occupy myself, mostly my mind. I started a mini garden, these are the plants I have growing inside.

 

 

Meet Las Chingonas. I decided to paint them 
on a cactus bowl.

On a different note today was teacher appreciation day and one of my students brought me this fruit basket. Perfect gift for a vegan, and they even game me my favorites, Plums and green apples. :)

Balcony Garden

I started a very small garden on my apartment balcony, I have tomatoes, basil and cilantro. The cilantro is growing fast and so is the tomato plant. I can't wait to eat some home grown food. It takes me back to the days where I would harvest food with my dad.

I want to try growing some peppers and some cucumbers. I think I will start experimenting with different fruits and veggies. :D


Ms. D

I'm going back again.

I want to be hidden.

Teaching Spanish

At the beginning of the year when we were talking about teaching our students Spanish I was excited about the idea but I was scared for myself. My mom always told me that I spoke pocho Spanish, and at that, it was Splanglish. I am the youngest of 3 and I learned English first because of my sisters, Spanish was the side language. I was not proud of my Spanish growing up, i wanted to have proper vocabulary. So in high school I began my studying and all the way through college but nothing has helped more than having to teach it to others, and now my Spanish isn't too shabby ;)

Ms. D