If there are gods

Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones.

Marcus Aurelius

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-Ms. D

Chevron Fire (Richmond)

My roommate had to evacuate out apartment as our neighborhood filled with clouds of black smoke. She had to take refuge at a friends apartment in SF. While I knew my roommate was safe, what about all my students and their families that live even closer to the refinery than I do. Why are these refineries located near neighborhood of colored children. My students along with the rest of the citizens of Richmond were told of a shelter in place to avoid any contact with the cloud of god-knows-what. Why must my students and their families have to go through such scare? Why must they go through such injustices? The people of Richmond have a right to be angry and have their voices and concerns need to be heard.

That green arrow if where the refinery is located, the red dot is where my elementary school is located, and there are others that are closer! Tell me, how is this fair?

The beginning of summer

I never enjoyed summer much during college, I enjoyed it more when I was in my k-12 education but I have to say I definitely enjoy it more as a teacher. It's a much needed breath of air. So what's the first thing I did.... I let my suppressed rebel breath! I dyed my hair blue. It brought me back to my college and high cool days where I could be free and express myself and hide myself through my vibrant hair color. I used Manic Panic's Voodoo.

Then I got bored with it and wanted some more pop and added another blue. I liked the outcome, but this color bled too much afterward and my hands and neck were always getting stained blue. Yup teachers are rebels too, we are complicated individuals that can't wait for summer vacation to start so we can outwardly do all the crazy things we normally keep inside.

xoxo

Ms. D

Looking for a distraction.

I haven't posted in a while, I'm still trying to get the hang of it but really that isn't an excuse. I'm going to try harder to write instead if keeping everything in. So I've been doing quite a bit since summer started so I'm going to post up some stuff that I've done. Maybe this will keep my mind and heart at bay.....

yearning, but for what?

My soul yearns, and i know for what. But the why , is what I cannot answer. I knew I hadn't come to peace with it, but why again.

They say loved sould stay connected with one another, but does that mean the other is calling for me?
I doubt it.
 
Perhaps it's just a loose wire.

ranting of the mind

I’m probably a fool for still thinking about them. But it’s hard to try and get over people when you didn’t have closure or even just say good-bye. 

Timing is an important aspect in a relationship and it always seems to fail me. Timing was on neither of our sides and the lack of it together pulled us apart, not to mention all the other things tumbling down around us. I tried to help but you weren’t used to having people help you and you always pushed me away, and it hurt. 

Our last moments together were always spent reassuring you that I did love you and that you weren’t worthless. I wanted to tell you that you were being insecure for no reason.  We may have been in different stages on our life but it should have been thing to talk about not tare us apart. Did it bother you that I had a career and could support myself and you couldn’t? I never would ask you in person because I was scared of hurting you, because I knew you wanted to be “a man” and be able to support me.

I knew what you had and didn’t have going into the relationship. You were a good person with a good heart, and I didn’t know how to show you that I valued that the most from you. You were a friend I could talk to, the one who always went the extra mile for me. ..

of late...

From right to left, Basil, morning burst oregano, basil, and tomatoes

I'm trying to occupy myself, mostly my mind. I started a mini garden, these are the plants I have growing inside.

 

 

Meet Las Chingonas. I decided to paint them 
on a cactus bowl.

On a different note today was teacher appreciation day and one of my students brought me this fruit basket. Perfect gift for a vegan, and they even game me my favorites, Plums and green apples. :)