Daily Purge #2

So my daily purge isn't working as it should, every other aspect is very busy. I also went offline from all media for a while as I mourn the loss of yet another family member. The suffering continues in my family and I don't know how the  rest of the year will go. I hope that the pattern doesn't continue. It is hard as it is to be way from my family and seeing them suffer, and not being with them while it is all happening makes it harder.

I need to do something to keep myself sane, but my energy is drained. I want to go out to the woods and do some target practice relive some stress but I don't even have time to take the drive there.  By the time I get out of work it is dark.

Maybe I should just set up a target at work.

Ms. D

Day 1

Day 1

I've had a lot of strange and realistic dreams lately, some that include people from my past and other in my current state. Crazy situations where I am running and others where I am in a mix of ages and years where my past and current worlds collide. I don't know what they mean and honestly they probably mean nothing. But I can't stop thinking about two in particular and after a phone call with my mom it is making me wonder if there is some truth behind these two since they were the ones that felt real and woke me a with an heavy heart.

Is it weird that I do not want to say anything about them outlaid because I feel like it is like saying  wish outlaid and nullify it?

Ms. D

Daily Purge

So I think I want to do a daily purge and just write it all down, thought about messing with video but I don't think I can really do that... I just need to clear my head of everything that is going on and since no one really looks at this or reads it what a better place.

Dreams

I've had so many interesting/weird dreams lately. They have been very detailed and Vivid. People in them include family members friends and lost connections . Not sure if any of my dreams mean anything or if they are just dreams.

Maybe I should start logging them to see if I find a patern or can make sense of them ...

MS. D

My vision was right, the year of the suffering.

Today I realized

it's the year of suffering. 

Ms.D

About Time

Time to be brutally honest with everything.

I'm done.

Ms. D